Oh the burn...

ouch...thats all i have to say tonight...more to come tomm. though, when i'm not exhausted and in pain...

Microbiology

By the time I finish studying for this micro test I think I am going to have to live in a bubble. It is disgusting thinking about all the microorganisms that live everywhere. Seriously though i will be able to tell you what bacteria you have on you after touching something. It's pretty cool to think that God created all these organisms on top of everything else we can see. These guys are pretty complex too, especially some of their systems of survival- no man or coincidence could have come up with that.

Tyan

I thought i'd take a moment and let you all know how wonderful my dog is. Coming home from lab tonight reminded me of what a joy she is. Today had been a long day after a long week with no end in site. After two exams and two papers this week and two more exams to look forward to next week I was exhausted mentally and physically but coming home to this bubbly ball of fluff just seemed to make my day better. She was so happy to see me (as she is to see anyone who might rub her belly) that she fell off the couch and crashed into the coffee table making me laugh and made me think that, "hey this is how God would greet us." so overwhelmingly glad to see us and hear about our day that he trips over himself trying to get to us to give us a hug (or a lick in Tyan's case) and welcome us home. Then I thought, He loves me that much yet i tend to put Him on the backburner when i get stressed or really busy, "when i'm finished with this paper then i'll really do my quiet time" or "just a few more days then this exam will be out of the way". I know Tyan wouldn't let me ignore her- she would be there holding the ball in her mouth with that expectant..."hey lets play" look, but God just waits patiently for me to come to Him. I am the prodigal daughter- i don't tend to stray as far but any wandering off is still wandering off- but he is always waiting for me ready to trip overhimself to welcome me back into a loving embrace that no one can match- not even Tyan.

Obedience

So here's the first post...great timing too considering i still haven't written the paper that is due tommorrow but i figured i would write about the discussion we had in Hope Group tonight while it was still fresh...
The topic from Butch's sermon on Sunday was obedience. He talked about Noah and how obedient Noah had been to build an ark for a flood during a time when they hadn't even seen rain. That amazed me right there. It was a blind step of faith, something i have struggled with the last few years in terms of where i'm supposed to go and what i am supposed to do. During Hope Group it was mentioned that Ggd doesn't always- infact most of the time he doesn't- just lay out a blueprint of everything that is in His plan for us. For me- growing up in a house that was so organized and everything was planned out to the tee-it is a constant struggle. Bruce mentioned it takes "driving the first nail into the board" then God will tell us what to do next. Then we got on the subject of well how do you know the nail you are driving is the one God has in store for you. This is where it really hit home. I've been going back and forth for the last 2 years- PA school or Med school... I really really feel like medicine is where God has called me but where in medicine I had no idea. This last summer I really felt called that my path towards med school was not where i was supposed to be. My decision to go to PA school was such a relief I really felt like that was where God was leading me to. Tonight though made me question it though. Gabby asked what happens if you feel like you are doing something that is in God's plan for you, but your off and it is not what God has in mind for you, but you do it because you truly feel it is Gods plan? That really got me to thinking. How exactly do you know if you are doing what God had planned for you? It will line up with the Bible which is why as Christians we should constantly be studying His word. So I guess thats all I can do now...pray, study, and listen...
We also discussed desires of your heart- but i'll save that for another time. I really liked what Brian said about it though:
"When you draw close to God His desires become your desires and those are the 'desires of your heart' that God wants to give to you."