well it's all over now...

So these last few days have been crazy, whether from exams because I had 3 this week or trying to get into Blinn and worrying about whether or not I was going to get into this Anatomy and Physiology class for the summer. This last week at churh Butch talked about Abrahm's obedience and one things that he said stuck with me this whole week.
"We can not pick and choose our areas of obedience."
That means that his instruction of "Do not worry" aren't an area of obedience that I can skip. I just have the hardest time sometimes, especially this last week. I tried so hard, when I realized that I was so tense because I was worried, to not worry and to trust that God would take care of me. Funny thing is, by the end of the whole shenanagans I had stopped worrying and the next day I got an email saying I was in the class, and not just any class the section I preferred! God is so amazing and I always forget it until something like this occurs and I am again amazed...why God is so amazing. I am reading a book that talks about being a Christian hedonist and one of my favorite quotes is:
" I know of no other way to triumph over sin long-term than to gain a distaste for it because of a spiritual satisfaction in God."
This means that I should let my complete satisfaction in God lead to complete trust and complete release for worrying. I want to gain that distance from worrying about what is going to happen in my future.

Trust

I feel so accomplished...not like "a renaissance man" is accomplished but I got a lot done today. I've finished all my papers for this week already (I had three due), decided what I am going to take next semester and the following semester, finished all I can do to apply at Blinn- which is a different story that i will tell in a little bit b/c it was soooo God (and my daddy)- anyway I feel like everything is coming together. Friday was a different story however...My dad called and told me that I had to take at least one of my Anatomy and Physiology classes this summer so I could have both of them done by December. So all friday, while i was running around with Britt to get stuff for her banquet on Saturday, I was calling all over the place to apply at Blinn and get transcripts sent in- oh did i mention that I called the Biology dept and they said they weren't offering A&P this summer so I have to go to Blinn to take it- After I got all the paperwork in I called the Biology office to see if they would accept the credits (which they won't but its okay b/c PA schools will) and they said that "Oh we are offering that course now". Frustrating as it was it just proved to me how amazing God's timing is. By taking it at Blinn it will be easier, all in the summer, and I will be able to take some really interesting classes like medical microbiology and immunology with the lab. yeah! Friday morning I was so frustrated and I was not letting myself just trust that God will not let me down. Going into medicine is where I feel like God is placing me without-a-doubt so why would He not help me get there...well he wouldn't is the simple answer I just have the hardest time sometimes remembering that!

"My father knows what I need even before I ask Him." Matt 6:8

" Do not worry, saying 'what shall we eat?' or 'what shall we drink?' or 'what shall we wear?' For the pagans run after all these things and your heavenly father knows that you need them. But seek first the kingdom and his rightiousness, and all these things will be given to you as well." Matt 6:31-33

God gave me an amazing family though who will do all the research and work harder than anything to help me reach my goals. Thank you.

Opportunities

I just got back from shadowing Dr. Bacak and I love it. I got to see some really neat cases and I even got to do an eye exam on a cute little 5 year old. Getting to shadow Dr. Bacak this semester has really made me focus more just because I can see the end of the tunnel...or at least what it could look like. I'm going to start shadowing a PA on tuesday so I can see the differences between Dr. and PA, and i'm excited about that. God has truly given me some amazing opportunities this year and I love it! Oh I thought this picture was really cute- its Dr Bacak and Johnathan from the trip this spring break.

So I have a little catching up to do...

LAST WEEK
Last week was a little hectic with exams, papers, and the sort...but I got some exams back that made my week all better...In my pop. genetics class I got my exam back and got an A on it, same with nutrition but I didn't expect any less in that class... Those A's gave me the confidence that my studying is paying off. Micro has been a little of a downer this semester because my prof is crazy...and by crazy i mean he could be sent to the behavioral institute in Navasota one day and i wouldn't blink an eye...he came to our last exam review drunk- talking about how Sandra Oh (the lady on Grey's Anatomy) used to be one of his TA's at USC then he randomly got some homeade Kim-Chi ( i think that's how you spell it) out and made this girl try it (she was Korean and was arguing with him about how Sandra Oh was Korean and not Chinese)...anyway because of his crazy-ness i haven't done that well in his class (or at least not in comparison to the amount of time i put into it.) But i feel better about it. The application to PA school is coming out soon so its something else to motivate me and remind me that i am doing what i'm supposed to be doing.
EASTER WEEKEND
Well last week is over and I had a wonderful easter weekend. I got to scrapbook and go shopping with mom and Rach and just relax for the first time in a while. It was a good weekend. Then we came up to College Station for easter service and I really like howthe church did service. It wasn't the typical easter service. It was based on the question,... why are you here? Easter is the number one service that people who don't go to church regularly actually attend, which means it is a wonderful time to witness to them and I think that Butch did a great job. But the question of why are you here wasn't just for those people it was for the people that go regularly too, like me. It can just become habit...or even selfish desires that make us go to church every week. I know I'm guilty of going just because I feel so much better afterwards, but if that is my only reason then I'm going for the wrong reason. It shouldn't be about what I can get from God it should be what I can give to him...and not just on Sundays!
THIS WEEK...well monday at least
This week is going to be a good week. I can get caught up on some reading, get started on the PA school application, and hopefully get close to finished on my project for Dr. Smotherman. Yesterday i got to MIC...yes MIC ladies and gentlemen...i am a full fledged medic-in-charge now yeah! anyway i got to MIC the shak-a-thon event which was cool. I am a freaking white cloud though...nothing ever extreme happens when i'm at an event...which i guess is good but I got no patients what-so-ever which can make it a pretty boring night. Well i think i've caught myself up hopefully i'll be more on top of things and write more often so i don't have to write these novels :)

Oh the burn...continued

So yesterday I was out at the Army FTX all day long...4am-8pm...It was a really good day though even hough I got sunburned. I got to act as a medic in charge which was cool, i really enjoy that kind of stuff. The people that came weren't all from A&M and when they asked us what we got paid and we said we volunteered they were very surprised. Its one thing i can do to help others that not everyone else can and I love doing it.